World Weary
Tuesday, November 26th, 2013 02:44 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
caddymanI am finding it increasingly difficult to maintain any semblance of interest at work and would, all things considered, rather be elsewhere. There’s nothing wrong as such, I just don’t find it particularly engaging and I feel rather isolated sitting at the edge of the wider team, not speaking to anyone for hours at a time.
They are all perfectly pleasant enough, but I don’t feel particularly involved in what they’re up to and I’m finding it increasingly difficult to care. The trouble is, apart from being the new speck, I am sitting at the end of an otherwise unpopulated row of desks – this is the only one I can raise so that I’m not leaning forward all the time and putting my back out. It doesn’t help, of course, that the temperature in this part of the building is several degrees higher than I am comfortable with. And to add insult to injury, unless someone wanders past from time to time, the lights fade out because just sitting at a desk doesn’t constitute enough activity to convince the sensors that there is anyone sitting here.
I spend much of my time bored witless and wishing to sleep. This isn’t helped by the fact that my sleep patterns are ragged at the moment at home. I am often too hot in bed and too cold if I kick the duvet off. And I keep waking up (though I doze off again quickly as a rule). Last night I was on the verge of getting up again after lying in bed staring at the ceiling for over an hour. That’s the point where I finally drifted off, but it means that I feel tired and that’s not a good thing in this soporific environment.
This weekend coming is our annual GASP trip to Norfolk. I’m looking forward to it not least because it will get me out of this place for four whole days. On the other hand, I haven’t seen much of Furtle this past couple of weeks for one reason or another.
Still, I’m hoping for a full fortnight off over Christmas and the New year period. Hopefully that will give me the break I need.
They are all perfectly pleasant enough, but I don’t feel particularly involved in what they’re up to and I’m finding it increasingly difficult to care. The trouble is, apart from being the new speck, I am sitting at the end of an otherwise unpopulated row of desks – this is the only one I can raise so that I’m not leaning forward all the time and putting my back out. It doesn’t help, of course, that the temperature in this part of the building is several degrees higher than I am comfortable with. And to add insult to injury, unless someone wanders past from time to time, the lights fade out because just sitting at a desk doesn’t constitute enough activity to convince the sensors that there is anyone sitting here.
I spend much of my time bored witless and wishing to sleep. This isn’t helped by the fact that my sleep patterns are ragged at the moment at home. I am often too hot in bed and too cold if I kick the duvet off. And I keep waking up (though I doze off again quickly as a rule). Last night I was on the verge of getting up again after lying in bed staring at the ceiling for over an hour. That’s the point where I finally drifted off, but it means that I feel tired and that’s not a good thing in this soporific environment.
This weekend coming is our annual GASP trip to Norfolk. I’m looking forward to it not least because it will get me out of this place for four whole days. On the other hand, I haven’t seen much of Furtle this past couple of weeks for one reason or another.
Still, I’m hoping for a full fortnight off over Christmas and the New year period. Hopefully that will give me the break I need.