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Cold Turkey
Monday, September 4th, 2006 11:04 amWell, I have just had the annual leave for next week signed off so that I can go home and drop myself straight into the middle of our own little family soap opera. I’ll worry about that next week when I actually have to.
Right now as I write I can tell you that I have not had a smoke for 8 hours 20 minutes. I slept for about five of those hours, so it is only the last three or so that have been a pain. I have discovered that Trebor Extra Strong Mints are not strong enough. I think I need menthol something. Maybe strong menthol mints – does anyone make them? I shall have to find out.
Pepper spray. Ooh, that’s a thought. That would be nicely powerful, wouldn’t it? That would mask the lack of nicotine.
It’s a long time since I have made a serious effort to stop smoking. All health concerns a side, I quite enjoy it, see. I know that if I can stick the first three days or so, the nicotine craving goes away and after that it is largely a question of being on guard against the seductive voice in the back of your head which tells you that ‘just one won’t hurt for old time’s sake…’ The actual annoying part about nicotine withdrawal is not that it hurts or anything like that, because it doesn’t, it’s the fact that you just can’t bloody stop thinking about cigarettes.
Well, the fact that you are in a permanent sweat, your hands twitch and you want to scratch your lungs is probably more annoying, to be honest, but that will pass.
I am refusing, for the time being, to use gum or patches. Having read the dosages it is arguably cheaper to continue smoking and anyway every time they are advertised it says discreetly ion the corner of the telly screen, “requires will power” which is what my method requires too, but without the expenditure. Except maybe on the most perfect and earth-shatteringly powerful pepper mint.
Eight hours thirty-five minutes.
I want to gnaw the table.
Right now as I write I can tell you that I have not had a smoke for 8 hours 20 minutes. I slept for about five of those hours, so it is only the last three or so that have been a pain. I have discovered that Trebor Extra Strong Mints are not strong enough. I think I need menthol something. Maybe strong menthol mints – does anyone make them? I shall have to find out.
Pepper spray. Ooh, that’s a thought. That would be nicely powerful, wouldn’t it? That would mask the lack of nicotine.
It’s a long time since I have made a serious effort to stop smoking. All health concerns a side, I quite enjoy it, see. I know that if I can stick the first three days or so, the nicotine craving goes away and after that it is largely a question of being on guard against the seductive voice in the back of your head which tells you that ‘just one won’t hurt for old time’s sake…’ The actual annoying part about nicotine withdrawal is not that it hurts or anything like that, because it doesn’t, it’s the fact that you just can’t bloody stop thinking about cigarettes.
Well, the fact that you are in a permanent sweat, your hands twitch and you want to scratch your lungs is probably more annoying, to be honest, but that will pass.
I am refusing, for the time being, to use gum or patches. Having read the dosages it is arguably cheaper to continue smoking and anyway every time they are advertised it says discreetly ion the corner of the telly screen, “requires will power” which is what my method requires too, but without the expenditure. Except maybe on the most perfect and earth-shatteringly powerful pepper mint.
Eight hours thirty-five minutes.
I want to gnaw the table.