Further ramblings of a self-made pauper

Gah!

I am in the middle of a nicotine fit! I don't think I had one all day yesterday.

I want to chew the desk until it passes, but that would be unseemly (and quite probably painful).

Grrr.....

*Phui*

I am less than impressed by the efficacy of these nicotine patches; I know that it's a reduced amount from the patch compared with lighting up, but I have just had the biggest nicotine fit I can recall from any of my (admittedly failed) previous attempts at quitting smoking.

I am beginning to wonder if it's all a marketing ploy to extend the withdrawal period. I have always found it to be less the need for nicotine and more the physical habit and various rituals and tranquilments that makes it hard to stay off the cigarettes. If I am still craving the nicotine after three or four days when I traditionally feel the lure of the ciggy, this may be harder than I thought. Normally the physical craving has gone by then.

I need a TARDIS to go back and kick the 18 year old me up the arse for ever starting.

Right, here's the deal. I have in front of me a pack of NiQuitin CQ 24 hour nicotine patches. I am carrying on smoking tonight, but tomorrow morning, I shall put one of those on instead of lighting up. Let's face it, previous attempts to quit the evil weed cold turkey have failed, so let's try the patches. I have a stress-free three-day weekend ahead to get me started and these things are supposed to help wean a body off nicotine gradually. Here's hoping. Now all I have to do is fathom how to smoke them. A pipe, maybe.